If I Could Turn Back Time #BehindTheBlogger
I think that everyone throughout their lives young and old wish they could turn back time. As I sit here trying very hard to think of one significant instance in my life that I wish I could go back to, I can think of none. Not even one. Throughout my life, I have had many challenges, one that has lasted over five years, and some that might have lasted a day. I have also had many wonderful experiences and have met some of the best people there are to know.
I am a unique individual. I don’t ponder the inevitable nor do I think of the past. My life moves forward at the quickest pace possible. Marching violently into the unknown. My life is just how I want it to be, maybe have a little bit more money..lol..but other than that, everything is moving forward. I have a husband that I admire and love; we have been through so much together, and he has always stood beside me, even when things looked so bad. If you know me, I don’t tend to like to talk about myself or my experiences in life. I keep them hidden in a dark room and throw away the key on those bad times while putting those wonderful experiences on a shelf proudly for me to look at.
Maybe one thing that I would like to change about myself if I could turn back time is to not be so hard on myself. This is something that I struggle with daily. I have always felt that I was insignificant and lack in so many of the wonderful qualities other women have. I don’t find myself intelligent, if you read my blog, you know that.he he he. I have never found myself beautiful at all and I am my worst critic. I take pictures of myself only to judge them so harshly sometimes that I could cry. I have always been this way, and that is one thing that if I could turn back time, I would try to love myself more.
When my brother died at such a young age for a stupid reason, I felt so guilty, like that should have been me. He was so intelligent and smart, with a beautiful family. Just like I did there, I have a tendency to try to measure myself to others, I know deep down I should not do this, but I do and it just is a never-ending vicious cycle.
If there is one thing that you take from this posting is to know that we all have our faults, everything happens for a reason and always look forward in life. March through life-like you own it because you do. Personally, I would not want to turn back time. There is nothing I would have done differently in my life except love myself a bit more from time to time. I have a wonderful husband, a family that loves me and a beautiful, promising career in blogging (I hope) and I always look straight ahead to the future. Lastly, always be kind to yourself, it is a horrid thing to judge every move you make. Sometimes I think I am my worst best friend.
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